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Fingers AKA Alias sabretee

Cassi

Dedicated to the counterpart of Cassi

Perhaps drugs, smugglers, and a cult destroyed your family
But the system destroyed You before you could even come to Be.
And when your guardian Uncle Cassi committed suicide
The five year old that you were hid her soul deep in her mind
Taking Cassi's spirit inside.
Only a small and vulnerable child
Already fearful, fighting, and wild

The State gave up and passed you onto a religious home
Yet another system of lies who betrayed you to one of their own
And under him your crimson virginity flowed.
Scream all you want, nobody will listen
Neither church or state pay any attention
Suffering his violence and abortions for over a year
On your thirteenth birthday, all you know is pain and fear
Then you find you're the fourth girl this man picked
Adding to your hatred for all that's Catholic
Can't take anymore of the terror, pain, and rape
Call Uncle Cassi's spirit to help you escape

She says,
"To the Shadows and Streets I'll flee
The future can't be any worse than what has already befallen me!
And this time I'm not alone, I have become One with Cassi
And now he'll stand by my side for all eternity!"

Little girl on the run and running fast
From the cops, your guardian, your past
Trying not to be engulfed by the Hatred of the Streets
Cassi will shield you from feeling the constant heat
Life, a constant struggle to survive
In which only paranoia can keep you alive
For survival of the trusting are slim and none
Growing numb to all you have seen and done
Playing the Game for all that you can get
But Trust is a game of Russian Roulette
So much heartache and betrayal in your eyes
By your fourteenth birthday, you've grown streetwise
Outreach vans and counselors say Covenant House will help you
But dare you trust the mercy of Catholics over the shelter of the Krew?

She says,
"To the Shadows and Streets I'll flee
The future can't be any worse than what has already befallen me!
And this time I'm not alone, I have become One with Cassi
And now he'll stand by my side for all eternity!"

Dead Uncle Cassi is your inner strength to help you cope
And the Krew makes it easier still in a life without Hope:
A life of stealing, turning tricks, and selling dope
On these cruel city streets where so many have died
We can prevent your murder or suicide
So stand by your new brothers and sisters in the Krew
For unlike everyone else, we'll always look out for you.
But is it kind or cruel fate
to find Love in a city of Hate?

As what was once a terrifying hell becomes unbridled pleasure
Fear gives sway to an alien passion you never knew before
In a motel room, both of you begging for more
Interrupted by an endless knocking on the door
Leaping out of bed as the madness begins
As several cops come busting in
Screaming your Terror and Rage as they place you under arrest
"How the hell does the State think they know what's best?"

In sexual slavery, they left you to rot
But in consent, you were sure to be caught.
TYC, CPS, C-House, and back to the street
Laughing at a futile system that is its own defeat
Then the chaos of the '90 Economic Summit took its toll
Finally bringing about a violent and bloody end to it all
But in a squat on our last day
I heard her say:

She says,
"To the Shadows and Streets I'll flee The future can't be any worse than what has already befallen me!
And this time I'm not alone, I have become One with Cassi
And now he'll stand by my side for all eternity!"

Where are you now my lost sister, do you still hide in the night?
I'm sorry that neither love nor miracles could save us from our plight
It is likely that in this life we shall never meet again
But my Love for the Krew, and all lost children, shall never end
And YOU shall always Be my beloved Sister and Friend

 

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